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recommend this song...

when christmas comes to town...

(a song of the movie, polar express)

but my test is not over...

this is not a test to me but a competition...

i hate the feelings when i know people do better than me

especially in the test that i am very confident in...

but careless mistake is always there....

how are you going to be a accountant??

will i end up in law sue because of my carelessness

in the future??

hehe... maybe i must get the top and earn a lot before

i am being sued by others...

watched the drama series, triumph in the skies...

that is a story about pilots...

yesterday.. the previous episode, it was about

zita, the only female pilot in the show made her

decision to choose between issac and donald...

it was a touching scene.... though i prefer

she go on stead with issac.. donald kept his promise

waiting for her even though he was seriously injured...

wah!! it is so 'drama'... but maybe it will come true

in my life one day... who knows??

don't know why i like to watch donald quarrelling with

zita... maybe it is sweet!!

and there was another drama series on channel 8...

every saturday and sunday night...

i forgot the english title, its chinese title is zhui hun jiao yi...

it was about a hacker...

i like his characteristic... cool!! i like his attitude!!

"i hope that i can have a copy of the proposal in my inbox

before i leave my office!!" cool!!

he don't like hardcopy of any documents...

so am i... but i do like hardcopies of those postcards...

greetings cards that i think can never be substituted

by e-cards...

for mail, i prefer email than traditional mail...

hehe... environmental friendly!!

those dramas about profession seem interesting to me...

hong yi shou ji - nurses;

lie hou xiong xin - firemen;

zhui hun jiao yi - hacker;

triumph in the skies - pilots;

is there any drama about accountants???

accountants' life seem very boring hor..

that's why nobody dare to invest money to firm it..

haha... boring jobs for boring people!!

watch a movie some days ago...

the banquet - ye yan

directed by a chinese director feng xiao gang...

acted out by zhang zi yi, zhou xun, ge you and a hong kong

actor... i forgot his name....

it was a sleeping movie because the slow motion of the

story and frankly the story is super boring...

but i think artist, designer, those people like art

will like it... try it if you like art!

the star awards is just over..

i forgot who said these words...

"the media industry in singapore is growing and

it is better than the past"

there is a problem with these words...

do you think that it is growing and is better than

the past?? is there any improvement since mediacorp

took over channel u??? i don't think so...

i can't feel the improvement... what i can feel is the

monopoly market in media industry has brought it

down the hill... less competitive compared to the past...

what is the point if the local show is a total failure and

have to bring in hong kong shows??

the 7pm prime-time drama had been taken over by

hong kong drama... local drama is less interesting...

boring some more... repeating what that had be

reflected in other foreign dramas.. less creativity

due to the monopoly in the market...

so, i don't think the singapore government made

a very smart decision to put channel u under mediacorp...

less productivity, shows is being repeated...

suddenly this thought flash across my mind...

do your want to own a house...

you own house??

ya i do... i want a house, my own house!!

i don't want to stay in others' house...

so, if it is possible i hope that i can buy myself a house

after i join the labour force!!

will you feel comfortable to stay in your own house??

yes of course!!

this is not my first time stay in people's house....

even though they treat me like their own family...

share what they have with me.... i still never feel the

sense of home....

i was staying with my auntie's family once in the past

for a year... like what i am doing now i went home only

once a week... i was only 10 years old... primary 5...

my parents told me that i am very naughty, my results

was bad because i am in the forth class, so they send

me to my auntie's house... my auntie's family

will guide me in my studies (because my parents are

busy, couldn't spend much time to guide me) and

IF I DO NOT MANAGE TO DO WELL IN THE EXAM...

I HAVE TO STAY FOR ANOTHER YEAR!!!

i knew that wasn't the reason. my parents are both

working and ya.. i can understand , nobody can take

care of me... i was not that independent that time...

but it was really a hard time... not because my auntie

treat me badly, they treat me like their family....

but i wasn't with my parents... that was why i feel sad...

really sad.... i cried almost every week... every sunday

night... just like a homeless kid... hehe...

my sister was at home that time... because she was

actually the one who naughty... my auntie's family

scared of her... so, what would i fell??

unfair!! unfair!! why she can stay at home but i must

stay with my auntie?? why?? am i not belong to the

family?? i was thinking that.... i don't want to

ji ren li xia (a chinese proverb)

do you know the feelings when your family is not around

you?? ji ren li xia??

no matter how nice is the "people" treat you,

feed you with dragon meat..

after all that place is still not belong to you...

is still not your house!!

so, i must get myself a house, my family a house

the earliest that i can... maybe i am the type that

appreciate home....

you know why... i slept 2 and a half hours only..

wah!! super super blur today...

finally i done the project and manage to submit it in time

but i think i wouldn't score high... i missed out lot of things.

it made me angry!! when i was doing works...

people were talking... not related to the topic...

when i said, "we got not enough time!",

they were still chatting...

constructing my e-portfolio...

it means i am going to find a job...

finally... finally... i started to look for jobs in the press..

test is coming... assignment i due soon...

tutorial is waiting for me...

endless tasks.. such a busy semester....

i went for the orientation tour assessment last week...

i was late that day....

i try to engage the people but forgot all facts that

i prepared the day before...

finally, i made some friends...

3 guys from malaysia...

and i realized something...

my chinese is the poorest among the participants...

i cant speak perfect chinese!!!

why?? poor in english, poor in chinese???

what am i good in??

rank the my preferred interdisciplinary studies modules

for next semester today...

i suddenly felt that i am interested in many things...

i want to learn art & design, photography,

flash, business etiquette, economy in china,

japanese!! and i can only take 2...

which one should i choose??

but it is a wise choice! i chose accountancy!!

accountants are rich!!! they can spend 12 dollar on

two pieces of meat (about 8 cm in radius) and

that is so called "quite cheap, not very high class"

haha... i am so happy that i am becoming rich in

few years time!!! yahoo!! hope it is not

fallacy of composition - what is true for 1 is not true

for all...

nobody is at home now...

"silent fills the night air"...

i enjoy last-minutes works!!

i had a wonderful christmas last year....

how about this coming christmas??

12 people celebrating christmas at orchard!!

may i have another one this year???

it is quite long never meet my friends...

my old friends...

hey.. my singapore old friends....

when are we having another 'lah teh' session again??

this time even worse...

"i think you should not come to singapore in the first place,

you should stay in malaysia..."

am i really that bad???

ya i know i did not do very well in my first semester...

there people who got 4 for their GPA... not only 1

and they get their prize...

that happen on last tuesday during his statistic lecture...

later week was a very very bus week for me...

i had a presentation on anger management on wednesday..

we are not even be informed about we are going to have

powerpoint slide to explain our role play...

i only be told on monday after our meeting...

but still able to do it in time...

this tutor... my life management skill tutor...

i don't like the way she comment on student...

why must she interrupts while people are presenting..

can you comment only the presentation is over??

the presenter will feel very disturb...

and some more, she comment on our work before

the presentation starts... "you all will be last group

to present because you all are not well-prepared"

what is this suppose to mean??? i didn't print out

our slide because we are not informed...

luckily, we are the last group, my slides are not good enough..

or rather the content are not enough...

my leader still able to edit it in time...

you know how fast she type??? she came out with

about 5 more slides in about 20 minutes!!!

it was a good job!! we did quite well...

both role play and presentation...

it can be better if i didn't forget my speech...

so she got nothing much to comment on our presentation...

haha... she didn't interrupt us!!

"excellent!!" "your role play very good!!"

"what you need is to submit our paperwork next week!!"

"besides, you have a very good script for your assignment too"

nice one! haha... thanks group! maybe i can get better score!!

this is another part of story... my individual and society tutorial

unlike lms, my iac project team is more quiet and

so far we did very little of our assignment...

maybe because of me... hehe... i never participant!!

i shall start my work now...

this is from my tutor, shawna tang... a sociologist...

she talked about racism... this is what she knows

when she was a journalist...

singapore is a multi-racial nation, just like malaysia..

most people will think that singapore being a harmony country

will not have racism... to me, yes i think so...

racism in singapore is much more better than malaysia..

in the sense that we don't realize it in singapore...

but, yes we do realize racism in malaysia...

but do you ever think why do we realize the racism in malaysia?

according to this malay writer who is a singaporean...

it seems to be a non-racism nation,

but if you see things in a different ways, racism is exist...

he found very disturb when he watch the NDP mtv..

he found this scene which shows a chinese playing soccer on a

very well-maintained soccer field.. but then there is another

scene in the mtv shows a malay playing soccer on mud...

what is this suppose to mean??

when filming about entrepreneurship, it always shows the chinese..

when filming about labour or the blue collar workers,

it shows the malays...

yes... i agreed! it is racism but why we never notice about it??

then my tutor gave her opinion...

we belong to the majority ethnic group... so is very hard to

notice about these things... but for people from minority group,

they tend to be sensitive...

yes!! that's why we realize the racism in malaysia...

maybe the malays did not realize it!!

there is another example... the disable..

we have legs, hands and our body is well-functioned...

so, we may not understand what the disable needs...

i saw this guy, he is blind... i saw him in the mrt...

it happen quite sometimes ago... it was when i came back

from a class outing for a movie...

he used a walking-stick... he sat just next to the door...

i forgot which station he was alighting...

when the train stop, he stood up walking towards the door...

he stopped at the door... i was thinking he was uncertain of

where is the platform gap... he stood there for quite a while...

so, there is a kind guy who was standing beside the door...

he wanted to help the blind... he hold the blind's arm and

try to direct the blind out of the train...

do you know what the blind did??

i was shocked that the blind reject the man's help...

the blind push away the man's hand...

so, i was thinking that he want to tell others that don't

show your extra care to me... i am just a normal human being...

i am able to handle this little thing...

so perhaps, to this minority group, extra concern will

let them feel very disturb...

it seems to be a very long entry... haha...

but my story haven't finish yet!!

i hate him!!!

this was just happen yesterday...

my tutorial was cancelled last minute as my tutor on mc..

so my friends and i went to library....

and this thing happen...

i shall not mentioned what was the thing here...

he was embarrassing me!!

this is not the first time... he is such a big mouth!!

i am not the only victim...

he always do something wrong in the wrong timing,

wrong setting, and worse using the wrong method...

he do not know what is not suitable to tell others...

he can't keep secret... he will let everybody knows...

i was pissed off when he do the same thing last time...

and yet he is doing again!!!

this is at least the third time...

perhaps he did the same thing when i am not around....

what the hell!! such a 'good' friend!!!

be ware of this guy!!!

last saturday.

there are many np student...

and all together there are only 3 intuitions involved..

though there are many np guys and girls,

i was still alone... no one to talk to...

what the hell are you doing!!

'it seems to be fun but was boring at the beginning',

i wrote this in my phone...

'i was so lonely at the beginning,

but later i have made lots of new friends'

i was hoping that this sentence will be appeared on my blog,

but it did not come true...

the number of friends i have still remain the same...

haih...

going for an assessment coming 25th...

looking forward to it...

does the real meaning of a word really important??

or the ideas that the speaks would like to express??

which one is more important...

if a guy want to express his ideas,

but he used the wrong words and caused misunderstanding...

should we forgive him?????

am i a nice guy?? how to be a nice guy that everyone likes you??

haih...

met mr. ong the past wednesday..

i felt so sad...

this isn't my first year doing accounts...

so, i would have this thought that i should be doing very well

in my 3-year diploma.

frankly, it wasn't too hard for me to pick those new things..

but, perhaps i had been overestimate myself..

maybe i am just like a normal one...

maybe i have learnt in the past doesn't help me now...

or maybe i am dumb enough - even though i have learnt

before, i still couldn't do better than others...

i am so envious that wei hao got a gpa of 4!!

yes, is FOUR!! full marks!

i should be the top... why he is better than me...

mr. ong's words hurts...

'actually, you were not doing very well.

you didn't impress me... i am sure that you know that

you were not doing well in the exam... you were the last

one who get that grade because i pulled you up!"

what am i suppose to say when he ask,

'you know right? you were not doing very well.'

what am i suppose to say??????

i was feeling like crying...

no way!! how can i be the last one??

how can he not impressed by my performance???

what is the purpose that mr. ong told me about this??

want me to be humble? not to be proud?

want to encourage me so that i can hit my target?

just want to encourage me???

or just want to let me know that i am dumb??

shall i thank you for telling me this??

shall i study harder??

i couldn't get you, sir!

do you notice the differences between sbs buses and smrt buses??

maybe my observations does not apply to all of them..

smrt buses are more well-maintained;

smrt buses are cleaner;

smrt buses go faster;

smrt buses have more space, can carry more;

smrt buses are new and installed with cctv;

sbs buses carry more detailed information on the route that

the bus is travelled on;

lastly, i notice that smrt driver look friendly but sbs driver are not!

so, is smrt better than sbs??

i think it is.. smrt seems to be higher in standard...

try this, www.personalitytype.com, nice!

my type is INFP, i am an introvert!!

you know S.H.E. the three girls!!!!!!!!!

can't believe it, man... i got their signatures..

shake their hands!!!!

they are really pretty!!!!!

thanks yes 933 and all the 7 other radio stations!!!

thank you for organizing this session...

but i couldn't take their photo very clearly...

can you imagine how happy i am?????

i cant describe it, man!!!!

i cant sleep liao la.....

it seems to be more interesting then last week...

having our 1st LMS group discussion..

oh no... i am the only one again...

why?????? anti-social...

haha... there is a girl in this group...

she asked me, 'you look very hyper in your self-intro

in the module discussion board... but, why you so quiet?'

ooh... ya... why am i so quiet all the while???

maybe i don't like face-to-face conversation...

or maybe i have two personality...

seems scary multi-personality...

or maybe i just want to scare you all.... haha

yup... i did realize it...

i tend to be very hyper when i sit in front my computer

or SMS-ing,

no matter who i am chatting with,

old friends or newly-made friends...

but things go the other way round when i don't...

sounds scary...

maybe i am under some depression.... haha

couldn't be la...

but anyway, guys, if one day, my condition

getting worse and showing symptoms of DEPRESSION!!!!

please do inform me... i don't want to end up in the mental hospital..

hope this day will never come....